Tuesday, August 22, 2017

I'm becoming one of those chyks

The ones who demand money up front
For the room deposit
The ones who have wishlists

I'm putting out so much value
I'm becoming more in demand

And there are becoming more and more
time wasters
Who just want to talk
and maybe make plans
That they maybe follow through on

And maybe not

The thing is I've been spoiled
For the most part and I mean 95%
My screening system has yielded only good guys
Super compatible, mature, professional
Reliable

Since that's what I've been used to
I haven't asked for much
And since I wasn't doing much here other than
Being myself with my profile
I didn't generate such an overwhelming
Amount of response

But now.
Now things are different.
Now I need limits
Now I've said to two men in one day:

Pay me first
Nothing happens
Until the room is paid for

Nothing continues
Until you have deposited funds
For the time and attention I so generously give
Without thinking

Enough

I will continue to enjoy being a sweet
and generous girl
A wet wild woman ready for pleasure

But from now on
You will pay

Monday, August 21, 2017

100 Questions

So I did this silly little survey in case someone would think it would be fun to read/ Enjoy and click the link at the end if you would like to do one as well :)

Name?: It depends
Nicknames?: It depends
Age?: Quite youthful 48
Single/Taken?: Polyamorous 
Are you happy with that?: Yes
How many kids do you want to have?: None at this time
What would you name them?: N/A
Do you have a best friend?: Close friend
Are they a guy/chick?: Male
Do they like you more than a friend?: It's coomplicated
Do you drink?: No
Do you like to party?: No
Do you smoke?: No
What do you smoke?: Nothing
Have you ever been in LOVE?: Yes
Do you believe in love?: Yes
Have you ever had your heart broken?: Yes
Who was your last boyfriend/girlfriend?: My current nesting companion
Are you happy that you are no longer together?: We still are, in a sense
Do you hate him/her for that?: Mixed feelings
What is your favortie band/singer?: Sade
What is your favorite song?: My song "Run to You"
What is your favorite movie?: Flashdance
What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?: butter anything with the nuts picked out
What is your favorite color?: fuchsia
Who is your best friend?: Myself
Do you know everything about them?: Hardly!
How many siblings do you have?: Classified
Are you happy with that?: Yep
What are you listening to right now?: TV
What was your last drink?: water
Who was your last kiss?: My nesting companion
Who was your last hug from?: nesting companion
What is your favorite food?: mangoes
Do you have more guy/girl friends?: I don't have friends, I have submissives, partners,colleagues, and creative collaborators, etc
Would you date any of your friends?: My lovers are my friends
Is this survey getting on your nerves?: Not really :)
What was the last thing you watched on T.V?: Snapped
Do you know who E.T is?: Yes
Do you believe in aliens?: A little
Do you believe that all cheaters will always be cheater?: Yes
Do you believe in dying becasue of lost love?: Not clear enough a question
Have you ever had someone close to you die?: Yes
What was his/her name?: There have been several
How did you know one another?: We met various ways
Have you ever "Jump shake your booty, Jump, Jump shake your booty"?: Nnnnnnope!
What kind of cell phone do you have?: ZTE Android
Who was your last txt from?: My nesting companion
Your second?: ?
Your fifth?: ?
Your ninth?: ?
What did you last txt say?: No
Your second?: ?
Your fifth?: ?
Your ninth?: ?


One or the other...not both...

pepsi/coke?: Pepsi
white/cream chocolate?: white/cream
love/lost?: love
money/love?: love
friends/money?: friends
family/friends?: friends
pens/pencils?: pens
Hawthorne Heights/Atreyu?: ?
Lindsay Lohan/Hilary Duff?: Neither
All Time Low/AFI?: ?
computer/music?: computer
camera/computer?: computer


RANDOM!!!

last person you slept with?: My nesting companion 
last person you ate with?: nesting companion
last person you hit?: I don't hit people
last person you cried over?: My late partner
last person you hugged?: nesting companion
last person you kissed?: nesting companion
last person you said "I LOVE YOU" to?: Myself, hugging in the mirror
did you mean it?: Heavens yes!
probably not right?: Wrong, I did mean it
last relationship lasted?: Still in it - over a year
last hookup lasted?: Same thing - over a year
last party was where?: Several years if at all


ONE WORD...to describe...

last party was:: nonexistent
band:: Mine
needles:: sharp
spaghetti:: yummy
flyleaf:: ?
senses fail:: ?
ll cool j:: smart
rap:: revolutionary
rock:: cool
metal:: cold
love:: essential
relationships:: valuable
school:: education
work:: --
cell phones:: --
boyfriend/girlfriend/alone:: partners
this survey:: --
friends:: chosen




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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Friday, August 18, 2017

Sexual Healing with the Angels (article & audio)

Sexual Healing with the Angels
(c) 2014 by
​Amethyste's Rah aka Cassendre Xavier and published at www.Wisdom-Magazine.com (links for article and audio at the bottom of the page)

Sexual Healing with the Angels

Why is it that there are so many angel healers, angel channelers, angel communicators, angel books, angel authors, angel guided meditation recording artists, angel visual artists, and none of them dealing with sexual issues?

I have been reading about the angels and studying many works by many angel specialists. I have been working, connecting, and healing with the angels for many years. Yet, whenever I look into the index of a book about angels, there is nothing on "Sexuality" at all.

As I wrote in my Wisdom Magazine article ["How to Tell if You Are Ready to Write Self-Help"][http://wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/3597/] one of the ways to tell if you're meant to lead in a certain area of your life is if there is no one out there providing what you need. As many authors have said, including Nobel Prize-winning novelist Toni Morrison, if the book you need isn't there, you must write it.

Well, I realized that my path as a lightworker and healing artist has led me to write about angels and sexual healing.

The angels are a proven spiritual tool for all people, and you can apply them to sexual healing. Whether you are religious, spiritual, New Age, pagan, agnostic, or even atheist, the angels work for everyone who asks. You can learn how, since the angels can help in every area of your life from relationships, to finances, to health and fulfilling your life purpose.

Angels can also help with recovering from sexual abuse, healing internalized homophobia, stopping self-sabotage, improving your body image, and attracting and selecting a sexually healthy and compatible lover.

Here are some basic steps to healing sexuality-related issues in your life, with the loving healing and guidance from the angels:

1) Don't wait to "get right with God". The angels are the arms, hands, and thoughts of a God which never judges nor condemns you. If you received negative messages about your sexuality and religion, the angels want you to know they never sent those! The angels know and see you only as the divine and wholly lovable being God created to be, exactly as you are. Relax, and let the angels help heal your heart and your sex life!

2) Allow the healing to be simple. While you may be inspired to try Tantra or take a class on relationships, or start therapy or counseling, the angels never make any healing or progress a lot of difficult work. Instead, you'll give given small steps to take along the way, which will build up to great results, if you follow the angels' Divine guidance. Also, sometimes you will simply be relieved of a condition simply by asking and believing. Never underestimate the power of God's angels!

3) Don't wait until you're an "angel expert". You do not need to know the names of every single archangel known to every humyn culture that ever lived. You do not need to know what colors their halos or auras are, nor their specialties, nor anything else that requires more work than your natural interest or schedule allows. All people, without exception, have a connection to, and can communicate with, angels. And in fact, we each have at least two very powerful guardian angels, and many more angels and ancestor/spirit guides with us. Just the fact that you're breathing, just being alive qualifies you to connect and heal with your angels. All you need to do to begin the dialogue is say or even just think the word, "Angels". The rest is just as easy (except for the occasional act of courage that may be required of you for a specific task)!

4) Don't be shy. The angels don't know shame or guilt and they certainly don't see you with any of those things. The angels only know love, joy, and they love to work for God, and assist all of us who ask. Many of us have asked the angels for big things, like attracting love and right partnership, or improving our health and joyful livelihood, and we've asked them for small favors, like finding objects. We are used to praying to God for these things, too. But we haven't been taught how to incorporate God and the angels into our sexual life. Thanks to Tantra, we know we can incorporate spirituality into our sex lives. And now, thanks to the increasing awareness of angel communication and connecting with the angels as a spiritual practice, we can now look to this non-denominational God-source to also heal and improve our sexual lives as well. It will take some courage to get specific with yourself, and learn to talk to God about, and ask the angels for exactly what you want when it comes to sex and your expression of it. But remember, God created sex, and the angels were created by God to serve and assist us in all things, including sex. Wholesome, hot, spiritually-enriched, Divine, partner-connected sex can be yours – just be willing to ask for more. You are a beloved child of God, and you deserve it!

5) Don't delay. The angels want us to remember to ask for what we want in the present. They want us to remember that our power is in the now. So, even if you don't know how you'll become the sexually empowered or sexually healthier person you'd like to be, don't wait to ask the angels to show you how. Even as you read this, you can think, "Angels, please help me," and they've already begun. Remember, you already know everything you need to know to work with the angels and become all you've ever wanted to be, in every area of your life (in and out of the boudoir!).

Read this online, including author's bio [here][http://wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/3645/]

You can listen to me read it on YouTube with beautiful background music [here][https://youtu.be/kwFYpwIjj_8]

Soulmate Attraction: Be Yourself

SOULMATE ATTRACTION: Being yourself is enough. It is unnecessary and counter-productive to try to be more like someone else. 

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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Kitchen Masturbation: Service Top Fantasy

I like to gestate erotic connection between dates or sessions with my subs.

I will be meeting one in the next few weeks, and I haven't scheduled it yet, but already it is feeling very good to us where it counts. We text every day and he is super super sweet.



I've also been spending time on Fet and getting quite aroused by what I see - all these hot people who are freaks like me and so very sexy and smart, funny, and often wise. Seeing so many people who are my physical type and playing the way I play is such a turn on...



I was about to leave for my day's appointments and errands, but couldn't in my state. I had to relieve my sexual tension, but I couldn't use the bed because my nesting partner was in there napping. I thought of using the living room but his adult daughter could arrive from her errands.



I considered using the basement but it was too dark and uncomfortable.

So, I opted for the kitchen.



I removed from the cabinet a little saucer, and went into the cabinet above the stove for my EVOO (extra virgin olive oil) to use as lube.



I poured a little of the oil onto the saucer.



I closed the curtains and blinds in the kitchen and dinette area, and went to lean against the counter where the dishwasher was.



Standing I undid my cuffed denim short-shorts, and pulled them and my black lace pantied down only far enough to reach my left hand in under them. But first, I dipped my fingers into the oil.

Dipping and rubbing, I spread my hairy pussy lips to find my clit and began to rub. I kept rubbing and circling and rubbing and first had a fantasy about a sweetie I do have a date with soon... next week in fact. He had just written me that answering my question of how he wanted to spend our date, go out, go to a movie, museum, dinner, etc. - thinking about it gave him an erection, so he knew he wanted to have sex first when we meet, and then go out... Recalling the times recently he has told me things like that - how he physically responds to my words, made me wet and I mixed that in with the oil as I rubbed a little harder and faster...

I had more fond memories of him and how much I enjoy his passion and sensuality when we are in bed together- he fully envelopes my body with these arms that don't look freakishly long when we're out of bed but somehow seem to wrap all around and over my large brown body.



Soon I was breathing harder and harder, and I had another fantasy about my trainee that inspired my writing "Boyfriend-Girlfriend Fantasy" recently.



This time I recalled seeing a Fet profile of a man I found attractive, who described himself as a "service" top.

I loved that concept! I fantasized about making my submissive seduce and take me passionately when we meet next... Not even letting me get to the bed - just kissing and then pulling my pants down at the hotel room's kitchen counter, and going down on me on his knees while I stand. I came this way, not worrying about making little gaspy and yipping sounds, knowing that my partner sleeps and snores loudly and would not likely be awakened, and if he did hear me cum, he'd enjoy it.



I put the dish of oil, from which I had been periodically dipipng, into the sink, pulled my pants up, and went upstairs to get ready to go out. I laughed a couple of times, and felt the erotic and healthful aftereffects of my orgasm for over an hour.



During my errands I texted my trainee that I had just masturbated to thoughts of him, and later I emailed my date to let him know he was in my mind during the first half of it. I enjoy being attentive to my play/partners and sweeties. They return the attention with a great deal of ability in pleasuring me.



From the FetLife BDSM Glossary:

[service Top (see Top): A Top whose focus is on giving a bottom what s/he desires.]












Lime Armpit Lick

One of my scent fetishes is armpits (not just any I'm picky!) and one day during sex with my late partner I went downstairs and got a thick slice of lime, which I then returned with and squeezed on his deliciously fragrant armpit/ After that I licked it and we both really got into it!
 Highly recommened even if you aren't a major lime lover like me!


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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com


Sunday, August 13, 2017

Reincarnation and physical/kink/karmic attraction

[Disclaimer:

The following will be pretty esoteric and may sound odd to many but not to New Age/lightworker/spiritual practitioner/professional or similar folks who have done past life regression, spiritual mediumship, etc. Please read with a very open mind, which as a kinkster ought to come more easily for you than most, heh-heh!]



Hi, folks!



I've been thinking a lot lately that reincarnation (which I believe in) could explain a lot about our attraction to certain physical features in people, or kinky behaviors in our sex lives. I have done this work and I know why I am so attracted to certain physical features in, and cultures of people.

I love being a Black Womon, and would come back in this body for whatever reasons my soul chose to return for further evolution.

But I do know I feel a very strong connection with people of certain physical features and cultural backgrounds.



Thoughts? (And be nice if sharing, please, thanks!)



#1 Do you believe in reincarnation?

#2 Have you done past life regression? (Self-study included, with guided meditation recording, through a spiritual medium, etc. I did mine with Doreen Virtue's Past Life Regression recording [here][https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_2/139-0444995-0550120?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=doreen+virtue+past+life]. She's my primary angel teacher and mentor of many years. Prior to that I had read books on discoviring your past lives and did a lot of meditations and writings on them - a largely self-discovery path).

#3 Have you ever thought about why you are attracted to certain people or kinky activities?

#4 Have you explored the karmic implications or possibilities in your relationships or attractions, insofar as reincarnation goes?



I look forward to hearing from you, and please post here rather than message me privately, if you can. But if you absolutely must message me about this, I will write back, but only if you're nice, and if you can't be nice then at least be submissive :)



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Make yourself a beautiful day!

Cassendre Xavier

"renaissance negresse"

$15,000 Leeway Transformation Award-Winning musician, writer, and community cultural arts organizer.

Founder & Executive Director of the Black Women's Arts Festival (Est. 2003) and the Women's Writing & Spoken Word Series (Est. 2002).

Official website: http://cassEndrExavier.wordpress.com