Monday, September 3, 2012

Amrita Waterfalls – With Pleasure Museletter

With Pleasure, a museletter by Amrita Waterfalls, the Sexy Side of Cassendre Xavier Monday, September 03, 2012 1) WHO IS AMRITA WATERFALLS? 2) UPCOMING APPEARANCES 3) SEXUAL INSPIRATION 4) FOOD FOR THOUGHT & SEX 5) WHAT I BELIEVE 1) WHO IS AMRITA WATERFALLS? Hi, there. My name is Cassendre Xavier and I’m a black female multi-media artist. I’m mostly a performing and recording singer-songwriter guitarist, multi-genre publishing author and avid YouTube poster who is addicted to getting groups together to do things that are fun, creative, and healing. That can be anything from support groups to festivals. I guess I’m a typical Aquarian in that way! I’m basically a very creative persun who happens to use art as healing, both for me and for others. I am trying to incorporate all aspects of my being into my work. I’m a woman of color, I’ve identified as bi, kinky, and poly (polyamorous/non-monogamous) since the early 1990s. I am an incest survivor and also have dealt with issues of depression, bipolar, and food addiction. All these things inform my work as an artist, and I choose to share my experiences in creative ways as medicine for my soul and healing body, to increase the joy in my life, and to hopefully inspire other creative folks to either do the same or at the very least feel better and be helped by my work. Throughout my years of work I’ve done several things to help me on my path of healing as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse – I created peer support groups and included my experience in my songs, recordings, multi-genre writings and theatre work. I am also a raw vegan and ordained interfaith minister. (You know…the usual!) Along the way, I’ve always been a deeply spiritual persun, although I rarely embraced a particular faith. For the past several years, I’ve been on a path of embracing all of me and teaching myself to be self-expressed in ways I’ve been too shy or burdened by shame or guilt to do so. I believe sexuality is an essential aspect of our being, and deserves the same amount of attention we give to our daily responsibilities in life, such as eating, honoring our loved ones in relationship, exercise, and so forth. A big part of the reason I am now putting my sexuality “out there” and talking about it is I grew up being shamed in various ways. If it wasn’t the sexual abuse I endured from childhood to young adulthood, it was the fundamentalist Christian pummeling my soul received, also from childhood. (I now believe that putting children through classes with endless descriptions of what hell is actually like must be some form of torture or child abuse.) I want to teach the world to love their bodies, love sex, and know that it’s okay. You will not burn in hell. God isn’t looking at you and your genitals to shame you. Anything that feels bad, is. Leave it alone. That’s what I’m here to teach, because that’s what’s helped me. Every time I sit to type, I’m asking for the courage to continue, and I’m releasing the shame and fear of other’s disapproving thoughts to do so. Still, I persist with the hope, faith, desire, and intention of reaching like-minded folks and especially the folks who needed to hear this message. If I reach a small number of those who appreciate my message, I can much more easily accept the rest. I’ve looked to teachers such as Betty Dodson and Barbara Carrellas to assist me with the development of my healthy sexual self as other teachers such as Louise Hay and Shakti Gawain have assisted my spiritual development. In an effort to promote healthy and holistic sexuality with the resources I have, I created the first and only group and fan page on Facebook for Betty Dodson, the feminist artist, sex educator and “mother of masturbation.” I’ve written a few museletters by Amrita Waterfalls (the sexual side of my writing/Self), and although I’m not sure what exactly is next for me insofar as my writing about sex/my sex life/my sex lessons goes, I do know that following your heart always makes things better, easier, and paves away for the answers to our questions. I hope my work as Amrita Waterfalls helps you on your path to an improved sex life and self-image as a vibrant, sexual and spiritual being having a humyn experience that is uniquely yours. 2) UPCOMING APPEARANCES Tuesday, Sept 11, 2012 10pm - No Cover - 21+ w/ID Guest artist at The Magic Hour hosted by John Francis Fergie's Pub 1214 Sansom Street, Philadelphia, PA 19107 (215) 928-8118 ============================= Monday, Sept 24, 2012 6pm Guest on the Blog Talk Radio show "It's All About You" Hosted by Darien K. Marshall and Darius L. Jones. I'll be talking about "Things I Wish I Knew When I Was 13" from the concepts of sin and hell (or lack thereof) to the importance of guilt-release and the radical acceptance of one's entire being, including sexuality, spirituality, and things we don't like about ourselves (the shadow, etc.). www.blogtalkradio.com/itsallaboutyou ============================= Tuesday, Oct 9, 2012 10pm - No Cover - 21+ w/ID Featured artist at The Magic Hour hosted by John Francis Fergie's Pub 1214 Sansom Street, Philadelphia, PA 19107 (215) 928-8118 ============================= Thursday, Nov 15, 2012 9pm No Cover Cassendre Xavier with special guest Patty Keough from Boston, MA Tea Lounge 837 Union Street Brooklyn, NY (718) 789-2762 3) SEXUAL INSPIRATION Betty Dodson is Entering Her 84th Year http://youtu.be/GqLhHiLCYcU For more videos of Betty Dodson & Carlin Ross, visit http://www.youtube.com/user/carlincherrybomb For their official website, visit http://www.dodsonandross.com Barbara Carrellas’s new book “Ecstasy is Necessary” is out. You can read about it, and Barbara’s other products and workshops at http://urbantantra.org 4) FOOD FOR THOUGHT & SEX Guys, quit eating meat. Or at least not so much of it. And, please, add plants to your meals! Green leaves, fresh, raw! There is a direct correlation between high cholesterol (which comes from animal protein), and ED (erectile dysfunction). I talk about this in my book Expanding Your Capacity for Joy: a Raw Vegan Comfort Book, Sourcebook & Journal (by Cassendre Xavier/ARtivist Publications 2009) You can hear and watch me discussing this on YouTube at Why Are Raw Vegan Men So Sexy? http://youtu.be/29SqrJCsRSs. The rest of my videos are at CXTV http://tinyurl.com/CXYouTube. It is sad and extremely ironic to me how millions of men buy into the “manly, meat” myth, stuff their innards on a daily basis with high fat animal protein and then are surprised when, 20 or 30 years later, they are not able to “get it up” as well, or at all. Eating too many animals clogs your arteries, and your arteries aren’t just in your heart, they’re also in your cock. It’s true. Put aside or cut in half that steak and slide a bowl of salad in your direction. Your body and your partner(s) will thank you. You’ll probably hear from me about this issue again soon because it’s an issue close to my heart. I want to be surrounded by men whose penises act the way the good lord intended them to act. It is one of my missions in life. And if I have to push salads for the rest of my life, or delicious green smoothies, then by Goddess, move out of my way! 5) WHAT I BELIEVE I believe we were meant to be happy, and that our gonads (sexual organs) are here as our primary physical channel to that joy. I believe our gonads are our second hearts, and that once we start to treat them as such, we will experience immense healing in every aspect of our lives. I believe that our hearts are the only places we can find the truth. I believe the greatest gifts we can give ourselves are self-love and the complete release of guilt and shame. I believe we can use sex and sexuality to accomplish our goals and dreams. For me, the direct portal is through a blend of sexuality and spirituality. For others it may be sexuality and artmaking. What will it be, or what has it been, for you? I believe writing this museletter has brought me one step away from fear and closer to love. Thank you for listening. Enjoy yourself and others. With Pleasure, Amrita Waterfalls, the sexy side of Cassendre Xavier To subscribe to the “Amrita Waterfalls - With Pleasure” museletter, visit http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com. Visit Cassendre’s main website at http://www.cassendrexavier.com If you enjoyed this museletter, you may enjoy more new writing by Cassendre (aka Amrita): FREE! New article on Wisdom Magazine’s online edition: Reframing Rejection http://wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/2814 FREE! Archived Wisdom Magazine articles by Cassendre: http://tinyurl.com/cxwisdom FREE! renaissance negresse museletter/catalog September 02, 2012 http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/cassendrexavier/message/302 or http://tinyurl.com/8coha5d ========================== Amrita Waterfalls - With Pleasure @2012 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. Disclaimer: I am an artist, not a licensed medical professional. Everything written above was done so for informational purposes only, not to lead you to go against the advice of someone the government wants you to listen to so that someday you can help fund their industries of sickness. Of course, if you sense these words as truth (you checked in with both your hearts!) that will lead to your better health, and you happen to eat kale salad twice a day and start noticing you have a sharper mind, increased energy, a more joyous heart, and rock hard erections, well, baby, you can thank me later ;-)

Monday, February 20, 2012

With Pleasure – Amrita Waterfalls MuseletterWith Pleasure – Amrita Waterfalls Museletter

With Pleasure – Amrita Waterfalls Museletter
Monday, February 20, 2012

WHO IS AMRITA WATERFALLS?
My name is Cassendre Xavier, and I’m a multi-media artist – musician, multi-genre author, actress, and visual artist. I’m also a community cultural arts advocate, founder and director of several Philadelphia based events. I work under the names Cassendre Xavier (music and writing), Amethyste Rah (spiritual – I’ve recorded spoken word guided meditation healing albums under this name) and Amrita Waterfalls (sexuality). "Amrita" is Sanskrit for nectar or ambrosia. It is a term commonly used among Tantric and Taoist as well as other advanced sexual practitioners. Many of you in the know what this term means. For those of you who do not, there is Google :-) You can learn more about my other work at http://cassEndrExavier.com.

WHAT I WROTE AND POSTED ON MY FACEBOOK WALL LAST WEEK
What Would You Do If... You have had at least 3 erotic dreams & several recurring erotic thoughts or fantasies about one of your Facebook friends? Woud/do you A) Text or privately message them something light, friendly, non-sexual B) Text or privately msg a flirty note but don't mention the dreams or fantasies C) Text or privately msg them that you've been having erotic dreams & fantasies about them & ask for & await their response D) Text or privately msg them that you've been having erotic dreams & fantasies about them & invite them to meet you in persun to explore these further E) None of those, or: Another option? Discuss! (Comments requested & encouraged here or at http://cassEndrExavier.blogspot.com/. If you don't see the Oh, and by the way, yes, this is a new opportunity of mine & so far my answer is C if I act from fear, and D if I act from love ;-)
Yes, triclosan is best avoided for the most part, and anti-bacterial hand-&-body soaps are creating problems from hormonal imbalances in our bodies to resistant super-viruses in our environment. Yes, frequent washing with plain soap & using salt as our anti-bacterial/anti-microbial are enough to keep us all safe & healthy. But, as Goddess-is-my-witness, there is one triclosan product and one triclosan product alone that I have stood by for years: "Total" toothpaste. It is, and it continues to be, the only thing that makes "morning-after" kissing not only possible without first tooth brushing, but actually pleasant! Highly effective and recommended. However, I'd be curious to see if baking soda & hydrogen peroxide have a similar effect. Has anyone of you sexypeople tried that overnight? Discuss!

From 1:41pm-1:58pm I had a great phone meeting with a musical theater director to begin preparations to audition for my first operatic singing and acting stage role ever, y'all! It is an "aria" (whatever *that* is!? :-) in Italian. It's a soprano role, which adds to the challenge, because when I was a member of Anna Crusis Women's Choir, the nation's oldest feminist chorus, I was an Alto 1. (My mom sings in soprano in her church choir, but her singing voice is much higher and shriller than mine.) O the dilemma! "Allora. Cosa facciamo?" -that's the only Italian I know (outside of "thank you"), that I learned from a genuine Italian-from-actual-Italy-with-the-sexy-ass-accent Dominant man I briefly dated. It means, "So. What shall we do?" We shall study and prepare to audition! We shall stretch the boundaries of our flexible vocal range and belt it out high and strong! We shall do the very best we can, have an absolute blast, and totally release the outcome! And we shall celebrate the results no matter what!

The fact that I asked for "a good connection with myself and others" and was sent not 1, not 2, not 3, but 4 potential lovers who each are good to me and good for me, and whose relationships with me are each of varying degrees of intimacy and availability as suits us all means the universe is *not* stingy! And it can respond very quickly sometimes. It has the ability, the resources, the willingness, and even the most sincere desire to provide what we never even imagined! I am grateful you are all part of this experience and on the journey with me. Thank you, and may we all continue to practice and prosper together! Question & Invitation for Community Dialogue: What is/are some example(s) of your having asked God/Goddess/Spirit/the angels/the universe or even another humyn, being, for something, and you received much more than you asked for? Comments sincerely requested, and remember, what we focus on grows, and gratitude is both a powerful attractor and a sacred, essential spiritual practice. If the only prayer the entire world ever said was, "Thank You," it would be enough. Please join us, and if you choose to do so privately, that is also welcome and useful!

#1Luv: Sure, I'm spooning my pillow, but I'm thinking of you. X. CX: Ok, but pillow is poly, not perfectly secure all the time, but focuses on being enough for itself, while often seeking sources of support (like articles on jealousy @ dodsonandross.com and poly workshops) to manage challenging emotions.Poly pillow likes to feel you spooning with it, and while it knows you spoon others, it appreciates your being in the moment with, and focusing only on poly pillow while you are in those moments. I have been up for a while, writing. Early bird morning persun says sweet dreams, and that it feels good 2 know ur thinking of me. kisses ~c. #1: You don't know my pillow! CX: Ur are perfectly adorable! Too much :-) Thanks 4 helping me lighten up. Sometimes a jealous, monogamous pillow is just a pillow! X

Reply to a lover's sweet text (no, not that lover. Not that one, not that one, either. That one. Yeah. :-) "Breathing in the sweet scent of your beard, which you thrilled me by saying you regularly condition, I thought, with a sincerely appreciative smile, 'Oh, this man loves & adores women!' I dug the way you kissed me, very gently, yet using your teeth, very passionate. So sweet the half hour of tenderness you shared with me early Sunday AM, holding andstroking me and my face as if trying to take some of my essence to keep with you and remember until we meet again. In choosing one word for how I feel with you and how I think of our times together, it is warm." ~Amrita Waterfalls (The Sexy Side of Cassendre Xavier) http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com/(Erotic/sex positive print &ebooks coming soon! Other CX books, including All Ebooks Name Your Price! sale available at http://cxbooks.eventbrite.com/ )
"Thesaurus Time! Words that mean the same thing, sorta!" Darling (n.): lover, sweetheart, dear one, beloved, dear heart, heart's desire, dearest, pet, angel, love, sweetie-pie, sugar, honey, precious, sweetie, hon, light of my life, baby, one and only, babycakes, hunny-bunny, bunny rabit, puppy, schnookums, silly, badboy, pretty, grizzled, world-class lesbian hugger, rustic man, cabin boy, you. "Thesaurus Time!"

More terms of endearment: muffin, good boy, ruffian, wild one, Boss, Daddy, Sir Master Sir, tiny little baby, big guy, big boy, good stuff, nasty, cutiepie, so adorable, non-talker, action man, magic, bear, slave, trouble, big girl, handsome, dumpling, sweetness, beautiful, mine.

That "Terms of Endearment" post brought back such pleasant memories! For instance, Sir Master Sir called me slave trouble. Sir Master Sir was the first Dom to give me domestic orders, which was so exciting I soon got a special piercing to commemorate the moment. Sir Master Sir also was the first, and thusfar the only, to collar me, and made me wait, beg, wait, and beg for some 5 weeks or 5 dates before I was kissed. And when Sir Master Sir kissed me, I was in special clothing and, um, "restraints" that were either genuine antiques or otherwise selected &newly purchased for me. And *then* [Sir Master Sir] kissed me. Oh, yeah. There will, and must be a book ;-) ~Amrita Waterfalls (The Sexy Side of Cassendre Xavier) http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com

I recently posted, re: my potential new boyfriend (PNBF) that "God must've known I really needed total mutual attraction, tenderness &affection from a peer who wants to relate the way I do." After reading that, I realized all 3 of my new relationships fit that description. (Yesterday, I mentioned 4, but #4 is developing more slowly than can be called a relationship!) They are all about 10 yrs more mature than I am (I guess that makes them, oh, about 36? :-), they all are spiritually, emotionally &physically compatible with &attracted to me. We all are interested or active in the creative/fine &healing arts, personal growth and/or recovery. We are all adventurers in one way or another (for instance, my PNBF is a multi-lingual world traveler, chef & writer- a Gemini, which is highly compatible with my Aquarius. OMGoddess, I met, like, FOUR Gemini writers! Incidentally, 2 of my ex-boyfriends are Gemini writers, all 3 of my longest relationships were with writers, and where was I? Oh yeah... :-) The universe is so wonderfully vast & abundant that it didn't send just one wonderful new love interest that had what was good for me, it sent several. AND it taught me that I have absolutely no business trying to date only one persun at a time. That's like suppressing all my great &juicy creative energy that was a gift from God to begin with. My Essence in all its spiritual, mental, emotional, creative/artistic & physical forms, must be expressed &expelled often & shamelessly celebrated & promotified! As the sayinggoes, "Never put a period where God has placed a comma,"-Various. Bring it on. Now that I know more of who I am & how the game works, I'm ready to play ;-)



Not every girl can climb the pole, know what I'm sayin'? -from Mickey Rourke's award acceptance speech for his role in "The Wrestler." He was referring to his co-star Marisa Tomei's command of both acting and stripping, as her role required. (Again, this is why I'm merely a hobby actress :-)

"Are you a swinger?" I asked, as we talked in his hotel room. We were fully dressed, expressing limits, fears, desires. He had just taken his vitamins, and his shirt off, heading to the bedroom. I'd asked him to put it back on so we could talk first. "Absolutely not," he responded firmly, in answer to myquestion, continuing, "I've always kind of thought of swinging as sports f_cking. And I'm not into sports f_cking." I agreed, and felt so relieved and happy to have yet more common ground and chemistry with this persun who seemed to be as interested in and taken with me as I was in and with him. We proceeded to the bedroom for our first massage. Though we spent 2 days & 1 night together, attended workshops, Snuggle Party, business/leadership meeting, dida TV interview, made love, drove, dined, and slept together, 5 days into our loverly new relationship, I now look forward to our first real, official date. Ain't love grand? http://lovemore.com/

My desire... My desire is to connect with Cassendre. -what my potential new boyfriend (PNBF) said to my PNGF as they interacted physically at the SnuggleParty. I was too busy in the middle of a highly aroused &affectionate manwich to notice much of what was happening beyond us, but it made &still makes me smile &feel good to know that throughout all the other happenings, all the folks we knew, met, and interacted with, thru all the stimulating workshops,media &opportunities to connect with many interesting &dynamic people, it was always I who was his priority and first choice. I who he wanted to spend the night &time alone with. I who he wanted to attend the Snuggle Party with. I who he wanted to drive to my next destination, alone, carrying my bags &opening &closing doors for me. And altho I had other similar offers (including invitations to hang out in various ways, and a ride from the 2nd guy I started a relationship with who wanted more time with me) it was he who had my attention from the beginning, and he who held my attention til my departure. Wewere bonding emotionally &I was very surprised,as I wasn't expecting or trying to make things happen. I was trying to make the most of my time there, for myself, alone. I was making myself happy &trying to be as helpful as I could at the Poly Living Conference http://lovemore.com/. Everything else was extra. (Tho in my heart I secretly wished for &said to the universe that I was ready for a major &really good, strong connection. :-) Again, God must've known I really needed total mutual attraction, tenderness &affection from a peer who wants to relate the way I do. I'm taking it one day at a time, trying not to expect too much too soon, but so far, I'll tell you, almost every moment has been bliss. And for every one of these moments, I am truly grateful.

© Copyright 2012 Amrita Waterfalls aka Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved. http://amritawaterfalls.blogspot.com

Monday, February 13, 2012

“With Pleasure” Amrita Waterfalls Museletter

“With Pleasure” Amrita Waterfalls Museletter
Valentine’s Day 2012 Ediccione
February 14, 2012

WHO IS AMRITA WATERFALLS?
PERMISSION TO BE SEXY
LEARNING TO BE A BEAUTIFUL GIRL
POLY LIVING CONFERENCE
THINGS I WROTE & POSTED ON MY FACEBOOK WALL

WHO IS AMRITA WATERFALLS?
My name is Cassendre Xavier, and I’m a multi-media artist – musician, multi-genre author, actress, and visual artist. I’m also a community cultural arts advocate, founder and director of several Philadelphia based events. I work under the names Cassendre Xavier (music and writing), Amethyste Rah (spiritual – I’ve recorded spoken word guided meditation healing albums under this name) and Amrita Waterfalls (sexuality). "Amrita" is Sanskrit for nectar or ambrosia. It is a term commonly used among Tantric and Taoist as well as other advanced sexual practitioners. Many of you in the know what this term means. For those of you who do not, there is Google :-) You can learn more about my other work at http://cassEndrExavier.com.

PERMISSION TO BE SEXY
For a very long time, I thought I was too heavy to express myself even onstage while performing music as I wished to. I wanted to wear corsets and be free to be sexy on stage, but I didn’t feel brave enough to express this side of me, even though I’ve done this once, and I was heavier when I did it – it was one of my best performances ever. Recently, I’ve had more opportunities to face this fear, partly because of weight loss, but mostly because of increased self-esteem, because in fact it wasn’t my size that limited me, but my self-esteem issues about my shape. I’ve accepted my shape now, and it doesn’t matter what my weight is. Other issues have come into play, and I’ll share about those as time goes on. I’ve learned, though, that self-esteem is the number one factor in sexual and sensual appeal – confidence is indeed the best cosmetic for anyone’s appearance, regardless of age, shape, or gender.

LEARNING TO BE A BEAUTIFUL GIRL
I’ve always known how to take a compliment, as a regular person, or when I was not ready to be more appealing physically – you just say thank you and you smile. But lately, as I’ve been becoming more conventionally attractive, and I’m sorry, I don’t know how to say that without sounding immodest, but I’ve learned I don’t know how to respond to certain compliments the way I should. For example, there are instances in which the appropriate response is NOT to say “Thank You”. I’ve journaled about this and may share this as I remember to. Meanwhile, I’m learning to smile demurely, as I observe others do. If I’m walking by a group of men, and someone says something to me, about being “fine” or whatever, I won’t say, “Thank you,” I’ll just smile. I said, “Thank you” once, and it just fell flat, like a heavy stone on my foot. Awkward. So strange these social rituals!

POLY LIVING CONFERENCE
I attended, worked, had a great time, and made more than a few heart connections at the 7th Annual Poly Living Conference in Philadelphia this year Friday, February 10 thru Sunday February 12, 2012. Wow. This experience is the big reason I wrote this museletter today. You can learn more about, and more importantly, help support the work of this vital organization by visiting http://lovemore.com. I will write more about this experience, but suffice it to say, it was very, very good for my soul. And, uh, yeah, my body, too ;-)

THINGS I WROTE & POSTED ON MY FACEBOOK WALL
slut (slut) [Middle Eng: slutte] 1. a persun of any gender who shamelessly enjoys and embraces high amounts of pleasure in various sexual and non-sexual ways 2. an empowered, self-possessed, confident, sex- and sexuality-affirming womon - adj: sluttish ~excerpt from "The renaissance negresse Dictionary," a work in progress by Cassendre Xaver. Are there any other words YOU would like to reclaim? Please comment!
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I'm starting to feel like huge parts of my everyday life are totally unnatural. I don't think I'm supposed to be walking around a city wearing clothes all day long. I think I'm supposed to live in a temple, pleasured regularly in the manner and by the men of my choosing, training them and channeling all energies into great projects. And no, I am not referring to a past life. I believe parts of my life have had elements of this idea, and that I may be receiving a calling to incorporate and activate more, or all elements into my present. Recommended reading: Urban Tantra, by Barbara Carrellas, and The Multi-Orgasmic Man, by Mantak Chia.
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Never underestimate the power of confidence, eye contact, and smiling, especially when used together.
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One of the ways to make yourself instantly and significantly attractive to prospective mates is to think of what you will bring to the relationship-how you will love, assist, and support your mate on their path. Imagine them looking at, and speaking of you to others with such pride and appreciation for how you enrich their life. And imagine you feeling the same way about them. Be in and live the flow of love. ~Cassendre Xavier, artist, lover, and multiple soul mate manifester


All for now. To read more CX museletters, visit http://groups.yahoo.com/group/cassendrexavier

© 2012 by Cassendre Xavier aka Amrita Waterfalls. All rights reserved or else, so there.